doubt
as a result of uncertainty there is always room for doubt. e.g.
- if i continue to fight for living: what if this is only false animal instincts? what if these hopes are only mind opiums? what if positive LF for me doesn’t exist?
- if i choose to leave: what if i’m just a scared coward who is running away from problems? what if i’m a loser because i nevery fully tried?
both sides always exist and with knowing it i still think my best choice would be refuse-or-accept.